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Sunday, July 20, 2008

"The mummy" named "Ge Jian" "didn't want to miss thing" so he was "bleeding love" while singing "see you again"


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Hey there..
Here's a quick update.

1) I usually thought that no one reads my posts. But then again, just last week, I found out that there are people who reads them and they are the ones that I least expect would read my rantings. So...here's a BIG THANK YOU!!! You know who you are =))

2) I had my 2nd of 2 Auditions last Wednesday. This one was for the CASS Talentime. Everyone practised hard. I kept singing till my voice got a little sore and I was sick the day after the auditions.

Lee Yan was the first to audition among the 5 of us. She went in quite nervous but told us that it wasn't nerve wrecking when you're in the audition room itself. That was encouraging.

They were asking why was I so calm and all. I was trying to keep calm but God knows how many butterflies were flying in my stomach. I kept telling myself that I needed to get into my Wally Blueberry mode and so I did.

I went into the room and I greet the judges, introduced myself and the song and began to sing.

I pictured myself on stage singing in front of a big crowd and having my own concert. Ok Ok..I was picturing myself having my Wally Blueberry & Syawal Yusoff : Best Of Both Worlds concert! HAHAH!

2 days later which was 2 days ago, I received a call from Matt, my classmate who's also the Organising Committee for the talentime and told me that I got into the 2nd round of the competition!

WOW!
This really feels like American Idol. Hopefully, I can make it into the finals. I really want to sing on that Auditorium stage because the last time I was on it, I was just an extra in TC's ARMY DAZE which was like a year ago. I'm not complaining but I want to be more than just an extra.

3) I was working full shift yesterday. I'm supposed to work today because it's like the most important day at Guardian today as our branch is doing stock taking. But I called them up this morning and told them I was sick. I was..I woke up with an aches all over and a bad headache. That aunty was of course pissed but who cares man? It's my life. I still have my LSC CA to complete.

And so I didn't work..but I went to VivoCity with my mum to buy that I.P. Zone cardigan which has the word ROCKSTAR on it. I saw Priya wearing it and thought it was cool! But when I got there, the cardigan was for ladies. I then set my eyes on this gorgeous jacket which looks smart casual. I really liked it and it was my size. So I got it. Gonna wear it to school tomorrow.

When I got home today, Grandma was nagging about the number of clothes I have. I came here with 2 boxes of clothes but now, I think I'll need another box if I'm gonna move out from here. I realise I have so many clothes now. My clothes are occupying 70% of my grandmother's wardrobe.

I WANT A NEW HOME!

OH OH OH!
I was watching the Hannah Montana 3D concert in parts which I downloaded from YouTube today. I tried watching it with the 3D goggles but the effect wasn't that good. Now I can't wait to buy the DVD.


This group photo was taken by my GEMS lecturer using her SUPER COOL iPhone!
The image is like super duper clear!

See you!

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Sunday, July 13, 2008

Don't (You Dare) Forget The Lyrics!


The famous MediaCorp sign.


I thought it was cool because the satellite dish has the word MediaCorp on it.


The sticker with the password that allowed me to enter the gantry.

I went for my first of 2 auditions today.
That's right..
I went for the 'Don't Forget The Lyrics' auditions at MediaCorp.

Though I was still in the recovery process from yesterday's big throw up, I braved myself and went for the auditions alone. My mum was supposed to go with me today but my grandmother fell in the toilet last night and so she was worried and decided to stay home and look after her.

I like to be punctual. Though my auditions are at 10.30am, I woke up 3 hours earlier. I took a shower and left home at 8+am. I hate the trains on Sundays. I had to wait like 7 minutes from Redhill and then another 7 minutes from Raffles Place to Toa Payoh. From Toa Payoh, I took a cab straight to Caldecott Broadcast Centre.

I reached very early. Like 1 and a half hours early. I wanted to sit down but the seats were occupied. There were quite a number of secondary school students there. And they're all from those prestigious schools. I couldn't stand them as they were very noisy. But of course, I couldn't have told them to shut up or anything. Apparently, there were some competition going on. It was kinda like that National Science Challenge thing.

Moving on, the receptionist then called me to get a ticket with a special code to enter a special gantry that required the use of the code. There were a lot of people there going for the auditions and they're much older than me. I probably was the youngest one.

Next, we were brought into a room where we had to fill in a very long application form on top of the one that we have sent earlier by mail. It is very interesting as they ask questions like "What's your most proudest moment in your life?", "What are the 3 most embarrassing moments of your life?", "What's your favourite dance movie? -my answer was of course High School Musical", "Which living and non-living person would you like to meet? - I answered Miley Cyrus and Spider-Man" etc etc etc.
They even asked to draw a self-portrait of yourself there. So I drew mine with more hair. During the time we were filling up the form, the people in charge played an episode of the US version of Don't Forget The Lyrics. I thought it wasn't so bad. I know a couple of songs from that episode.

Since I was the first one to have completed the form, I was then brought to audition. Before entering the audition room, I had to choose 1 of 3 songs to fill in the missing lyrics. There were My Way by Frank Sinatra, an Eagles' song and Umbrella by Rihanna. I chose the latter.

The person gave me the sheet of Umbrella lyrics with blanks. I could fill in the words for the first verse and the chorus but not from second verse onwards. When I entered the audition room, the producer told me to look into the camera and introduce myself and what I am currently doing. He then told me to sing the song I've chosen. He said that I got the words right. Which was awesome!

He then asked me a few questions in relation to my answers in the application form. He said since I am a big fan of Miley Cyrus, can I sing a song from Miley. I sang See You Again. They seemed to enjoy my singing. Then he asked a question that I kinda have expected he would ask.

Why must we pick you to be on the show?

I said that I am probably the youngest contestant here and most people think that I wouldn't know any oldies but I want to prove them wrong. Doesn't mean that you're not born from the 50s era, you don't know songs by Frank Sinatra.

That was it.
Audition over.
They said they would contact me if I'm selected to go for the next round. Please pray that I can make it to the next round.

On a sad cum angry note, I am so pissed with my stingy uncle. I was about to use the internet to blog and download the LSC stuff when he came. He was saying like why did I lie about not letting him download songs into his MP3. I am angry at him because he told my mum that we haven't been paying my grandmother since we stayed here. I'm like FUCK OFF lah! Who said I haven't been paying?? Did you ever give grandmother money?? He was banging the door and behaved like some barbarian. I tried not to be scared of him. But I was afraid that he would break my laptop. I just don't get people like him. He doesn't have kids, both him and his wife works and is so damn stingy. It kills him just to buy you KFC!

Now I feel that staying with people (in this case, my grandmother) really sucks. If I'm still going to stay here, these people are just going to come here and annoy me. I can't wait to really get a place where me and my mum can stay. I think it is better that way.

Moral of the story: Don't stay with other people other than your own family members. It sucks big time!

Bye.


A poster of SURIA's stars. I want to be on one of those boxes. See if you can spot our DMC senior, Hyrul Anuar!


This is the new Channel 8 drama event of the year that Jovis and Lee Yan love to watch.


Vandalized vending machine # 1 : This must have been written 2 years ago during the Singapore Idol fever as it has Rahimah's name on it. Rahimah was my secondary school's senior.


Vandalized vending machine # 2: This one has other names from other shows. I think there were some from Project Superstar.

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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Are you hook'd yet?


My lanyard.

I don't usually get up so early like 6.30 on a Saturday morning unless I have to work. But you can consider today's event as work because I had to sell things.

I arrived at Harbour Front MRT station at around 7.30. Lee Yan was already there. The rest arrived minutes later. As most of us have not had breakfast, we decided to grab a quick bite. We stopped by CHEERS and I got myself the POLAR'S HOT DOG ROLLS. They were yummy! We ate and made our way to the SENTOSA EXPRESS MONORAIL or something.

We took the train to BEACH Station. When we arrived, we walked from the station to CAFE DEL MAR. The contractors were doing some last minute touch ups while we had our briefing. We got our lanyards and tank tops and got changed. I am so glad to have gotten the Red one as it spells WILDCATS all over it. Well, not literally but you'll see when I post a picture of it. I was praying hard that I did not have to get the blue one as they have a blue one as well.

Moving on, while waiting to be briefed again, we had fun jumping on an inflatable volleyball court apparently known as Bossaball. Don't ask me why. I thought there was Bossa Nova music or something..but heck no. When it was time for us to do our duties, everybody was a little reluctant to go as we all were having too much fun doing nothing.

From about 10.30am to 2pm, Me, along with Aqmar, Aileen and a new found friend from another school were stationed at the Harbourfront interchange where we had to usher the students into the specially chartered buses and sell the tickets to them if they didn't have any. It was quite sad that only 40+ people actually took the bus instead of the expected 4000 people. There were only about 3 or 4 people taking the bus at any one time. It was that bad. Most people prefered to take the MONORAIL instead. During the time I was doing my duty, I talked to the staff working there and he's a very nice guy. He was very open to talk about his salary and stuff.

Moving on, when we were back at Siloso beach, I got myself that Limited Edition Coke Zero. The special thing about it is the bottle.



I don't really like the taste though. I also had cotton candy, a few drinks, etc etc etc. We took photos at CAFE DEL MAR but I can't post them up yet as I'm still waiting for Lee Yan to send them to me.

The thing I enjoyed about the event was the performance by local band WEST GRAND BOULEVARD. Jovis and Lee Yan are apparently in love with the lead singer who just happens to have the same name as Lee Yan's all time idol-Bryan. They say he's really cute..you decide!


The stage.

That guy in the middle is the lead singer of West Grand Boulevard.

Honestly, I don't really know any of their songs. But, I've heard of their name before. If they had invited Electrico, Saw Loser or Parking Lot Pimp, at least I know who they are. But hey, WEST GRAND BOULEVARD might be the next big thing!

Soon after, we decided to make a move as Lee Yan had to attend her Grandmother's birthday party. I wasn't feeling so good so I decided to go as well.

As we were leaving Siloso, I felt giddier and giddier. It was that pre-fainting feeling. Each time I could find a seat, I would sit down. I was so weak. Jovis was really nice as to carry my goodie bag for me. Lee Yan kept checking if I was fainting or not. From Outram Park to Redhill, Aqmar helped me carry my goodie bag and kept asking if I was alright.

When we arrived at Redhill, I asked for my stuff and he said that he would send me home as my condition was so bad. I could barely walk without swaying from side to side. I made a few stops as I was just too weak to walk.

Upon reaching home, I laid flat on the sofa. My mum applied medicated oil for me and it made me felt a little better. I knew that I was feeling bloated. She tried to feed me a piece of chiffon cake and the next minute, I jut threw up everything I had today. I made a mess on my blanket and the couch. I felt so good after throwing up. It's like my tummy has just been cleansed. I rested for a couple of minutes before getting up to shower.

Mum kept telling me that I shouldn't have drank the Coke Zeros. Thst's just me. I thought there was nothing wrong drinking those innocent Coke as it has zero everything. I think the culprit was the Pasta I had for lunch. Not only was it little, it was almost bland. I think I make better Pastas than that.

I am feeling better now. I can't wait for my audition tomorrow. I'll see you again.


Me and Leen.

Syawal.

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you are my true friend

The following post is dedicated to a true friend who just turned 18 yesterday.

We have known each other for over a year now.
Though there are ups and downs in our friendship, we're still the best of friends.
I am so grateful for what you have done for me today.
If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have made it back home safely.
I am truly touched by the sacrifices that you have made for me today.
And you were not grossed out with me in any way.
For that, I am so thankful to you.

I've said this to you on MSN, through SMS and I'm going to say this again.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!
May our friendship last.
Thank you Aqmar.



We got the party with us!

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Friday, July 11, 2008

good things come in twos

It's a beautiful Friday morning.
Usually around this time, I would be sitting in MMR tutorial for a 3 hour lesson.
But I'm at home now.
Why?
CUZ THERE'S NO CLASS!!!
But I still have to go to school later on as I have my Spec Dip class at 4.
MAJOR SPOILER!

Let's just recap on what happened a couple of days ago!


Remember this scary ride that I swore I wouldn't ride it?
I got drunk and I took the ride.
I'm kidding about the drinking part of course.
You know how scaredy cat I am right?
I didn't want to sit on it obviously.
But it was after lecture..
We saw Kevin and he just told Aqmar and Me to go up that thing.
When I said no, he was like "Are you a man or not? Are you a man or not?" and was poking me.
I had no choice.
Aqmar was all excited about it while I was dreading it.
When I climbed onto that machine, I was shaking.
But I tried to keep my cool.
When it was rotating, I began to scream.
I kept screaming and screaming.
I just felt so scared and I'm not kidding you on this one.
I kept worrying that what happens if I were to fly off that machine.
They just kept going faster and were laughing at me when I told them to stop it.
Oh, I didn't dare look so I kept my eyes closed.
When the machine finally stopped, I was so glad it did.
Everybody in my group took the ride and enjoyed it.
They said it was fun.
Maybe I agree to it to a certain extent but I still find it scary.
I want to overcome this fear.

Oh, we found out that hours later, no one could take the ride anymore as it was banned.
Apparently, a lecturer had made a complaint to somebody and that's it, the machine was stopped.
Oh, I forgot to mention that this ride was in conjunction with the launch of the Summer Issue of OOPS! Magazine.
You know what? I actually like OOPS!
Not that I disliked it before, I find that its standard is as good as Teens, Teenage, LIME!
So..KUDOS to the OOPS! TEAM!

Later on that day, we had our DMA storyboard presentation.
I thought we did well.
I just felt that I didn't speak enough during the Q & A segment.
But oh well..

Have you guys heard about the show Don't Forget The Lyrics?
We're gonna have a local version soon.
I sent in my application a few days ago.
To my surprise, they called me 2 days after application has closed and told me if I could come down to MediaCorp for the auditions.
I had to say yes of course even though I have to work on that day.
But this is more important.
It's like a once in a lifetime thing!
For you guys who haven't heard of this show, the title basically sums up the whole format of the gameshow.
There will be like 9 or 10 genres of songs.
Each time you play for a certain amount of money, you pick a genre and you choose 1 out of 2 songs that you can sing.
The song will play and you will sing.
When it stops and the words disappear, you are supposed to fill in those words.
Sounds easy if the songs are from our generation.
But from what I heard, the genres can be as old as the 1950s till present.
I know oldies, 70s,80s,90s music and present day.
So..that was why I joined.

I am also looking forward to another audition next week, 16th July.
It is for my school's talentime.
My entire clique is taking part in it!
How cool is that!
I haven't decided on what to sing yet.
Any suggestions?

Oh, yesterday, 10th July, I went to get another haircut.
Yeah..I know you guys have been saying that I have no hair.
I do.
Afterwards, me, my mum and her friend went to eat at Banquet.
Usually, I'll be so dogmatic and order the same dish everytime which is my favourite Hotplate Fried Rice. But I decided to go for a change and order Chicken Rice with extra rice.It used to be like $3.50 if you add more rice, but now it's $4.
I also had yummy takoyaki!

I asked my mum if I could get a pair of jeans from Giordano as my jeans are all oversized.
She said ok.
I have been eyeing on those $29 jeans at Giordano for a very long time. I tried it on, and thought it was nice.
I also bought a belt and 3 plain t-shirts.
You know Giordano has this plain shirts.
I got them in 3 colours.
And I couldn't believe it!
I actually wear XS!
It's so weird cuz I wear different sizes for different shirts from different stores.
Like I wear a size S for HANG TEN, M for LAWMAN, and M for TOPMAN.
XS for me is so not me.
I think it's just the cutting.
It's not me.
I have grown bigger.
Really.
You might not have noticed but I have.
Good things take time.
So..I'll just have to wait.

Alright then.
I have nothing else to say.
See you again.

Syawal.

PS: Wally Blueberry has a rival who is also a secret celebrity. Her name is SLY.
Watch out for her.

Wally Blueberry will be back in action on the 9th of August.
Do look out for him!

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Monday, July 7, 2008

The other side of me


The formal side of me.

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING POST CONTAINS WORDS THAT MIGHT BE HARMFUL TO SOME PEOPLE.
VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED.

I have a fucking thing to that I want to complain about fuckingly.
It might be a little overdue but I fuckingly need to say this.

It all happened on a fucking Wednesday, 2nd July 2008.
I came to work at 4 which was 30 mins earlier than I was supposed to.

When I came, the store was in a fucking mess.
That aunty didn't really talk to me.
So I kinda fuckingly ignored her too.
Fair right?

Then before she left, she told me to write price tickets are there are items on promotion and stuff like that.
Also, she said that we needed to make sure that we have all the item which are on a 1week promotion to be fully stocked as the area manager wants to see it.
She said that once we're done with it, we have to call him and he'll come down to check.
If he's not satisfied, then we can't go home.
What the Fuck right?
That was all she fuckingly told me.
So I just did my work like usual.
I was alone to tend the store till 7pm.
There were a lot of people and it was hectic as I had to keep running here and there.
You get the picture.

Around 9+, that other part-timer who was once a full-timer who tries so hard to suck up to the manager came by with all the printed tickets and the items.
I was complaining about what time are we gonna close the shop if we have to get the shelves done and make the store look so damn perfect.

We eventually pulled the shutters at around 9.40...
I didn't know what got into me but I was speaking in some British accent and crapping the whole time I was doing closing.

Let's skip all the unnecessary stuff...
And so..there was this box with all the goods that needs to be returned to the supplier.
You know, at my workplace, when something needs to be returned to the supplier, we must darn well return them or we have to bear the consequences.
That aunty didn't tell me about it.
I saw it and I know that I can't take it as trash and just throw it away.

So the night is over.

A few days later when I worked, I found out that the box was missing.
Everybody was worried for it.
Because apparently, the supplier came to collect it.
But on 3rd July, they couldn't find the box anymore.
So, they assumed that me and the other part timer had something to do with it.

When that busybody part-timer called me, I kept saying that I didn't know what happened to it which was true. I remembered pushing the box aside. They were saying that we might have thrown the box out along with the other rubbish by mistake.

Then she asked me if we couldn't find it, then we have to pay the amount of $705!
That was fuckingly stupid.
And so I said that I think the full timers should pay for it since they hold more responsibility than part timers.

Moments later, that full timer aunty walked into the store and asked angrily:

FULL TIMERS MUST PAY AR???

I honestly said yes as that was what I said and I admit to it.
Then she was saying that I'm blaming her for it.
Come on lah..
You are the store in charge, somehow, you should take the responsibility what!
So I told her that she didn't leave me with any message the other time regarding that very important box.
She said:

IF I ASK YOU ALL TO DO THINGS, WOULD YOU ALL LISTEN???
WOULD YOU ALL PLUS SELL IF I ASK YOU TO PLUS SELL???


She asked who dared to say YES.
I said YES.
I wasn't afraid of her anymore.
But I hated the fact that she embarrassed me in front of the customers.
How would you feel?

She then realized there were a lot of customers, so she said she would talk to us after work.
We had another mini argument after work.
She asked what she should do since none of us remember about that incident.
I told her to review the tape and see who really threw the box.
It's painful that I have to pay $141 for no reason but we have to resolve the fucking problem.

I noticed when she came back for the 2nd time, her eyes were teary.
It was like she just finished crying.
I am not being heartless, but I think that's what she deserved.
She's always been nasty to all her staff.
It was time she had a taste of her own medicine!
I know that I might have been rude but I did it to show to them that I can't be bullied.
Just because I'm the youngest part-timer there, it doesn't mean that I'm not strong enough!

And now me and that part timer who sucks up to that aunty are not on good terms after that incident. She was saying that whatever we said was bullshit lah...etc etc etc.
I think she's just mad that she had to pay for it as well.
I mean...nobody wants to pay for it what..
Now, it's still not confirmed if I need to pay for it or not because tomorrow, when the Aunty go meeting, she will talk about this to the area manager and see what he says. If he says that we need to pay for it, then I can't do anything. SIGH..

I might even get sued or go to jail if they think that me and the other part timer are in a conspiracy or something.

SIGH..
That was such a long piece wasn't it?
Don't get it?
Ask me if you're interested to know about this whole saga.

Ok..that wasn't so much vulgarity right?
I guess, I just cannot bring myself to write so many F words in my posts.

About the sueing part, it's like my 2nd time that I'm being threatened with such a thing.
I have been threatened that I'm gonna get sued once. But of course not.
Now that I've learnt the LAW module, I should know what to do.
Well..almost.

Let's leave you with some pictures:

Me in Priya's jacket thingy..it says ROCK STAR!

This fun fair ride is in our school. It looks cool that I might not be as so adventurous as to try it.
I don't want to vomit.

Jovis doing an impersonation of the veggies on the magazine.

Can you believe where they have this? At Redhill MRT station! Lee Yan is so sad that they don't have it at Woodlands MRT station. HAHAH!

Bye!

11:28 PM

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Saturday, July 5, 2008

You get the best of both worlds...really!

After a long depressing post previously,
I have come to my senses and will be posting about something more on the bright side.
Let's start.

I came to school in my formal wear yesterday.
Everyone was asking me why.
I told them that we had to do a photoshoot for our DMA assignment.
But honestly, I like wearing formal outfit.
I feel business-y and intelligent and serious.

After school, we took the photos in an empty classroom and then went to a few other places like the TV Studio, the Red Bridge and a lecturer's office.
I eventually changed into my casual outfit.
And boy was it a transformation.
I really felt like I was changing from Syawal to Wally Blueberry.

We were late for Specialist Dip class.
Yesterday's lesson ended half an hour earlier.
Since Aileen had to rush to attend some seminar along with Flora and Dexter, me and Jovis decided to visit lecturers that we know.
Not that we are trying to suck up to them or whatsoever.
We wanted to ask them for snacks and tidbits.
we were that desperate.
We tried looking for Ms Kwa in her room, but she has gone home.
We tried looking for Rajan, but he has gone home too.
Our hopes were almost lost till we walked past Ms Low's office and she happened to be leaving her room to go to the washroom or something.
She talked to us as she knows Jovis.
I told her we were looking for lecturers to ask for food but had no luck.
She kindly gave us 2 chicken pies.
Sadly, they were not Halal.
Jovis had it to herself.
Lucky girl.

I am working in a few hours time.
Hannah Montana will start in 8 minutes' time on Kids Central.
Gotta go!

11:11 AM

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Thursday, July 3, 2008

sometimes

Sometimes I wonder if I deserve to live.
Sometimes I feel like I don't fit in.
Sometimes I feel like I am trying so hard just to be accepted.

Sometimes I am so selfish.
Sometimes I get a little heartless.
Sometimes I wish that I just don't exist.

Sometimes I think about my future.
Sometimes I wonder if I have ever made the right choices.
Sometimes I see myself so stupid that I just want to be somebody else.

Sometimes I am nice to people.
Sometimes I can be just plain mean.
Sometimes I think people misjudge me.

Sometimes I feel insecure.
Sometimes I feel jealous.
Sometimes I feel like I'm winning only to realize that I am only dreaming.

Sometimes I see the hidden facets of people.
Sometimes I put on different masks so others will not see the real me.
Sometimes I want to be myself but I am afraid.

Sometimes I feel that people hate me.
Sometimes I want people to notice me.
Sometimes I want to be alone.

Sometimes I feel guilty.
Sometimes i wish I could apologize.
Sometimes I fail.

Sometimes I am independent.
Sometimes I can save the situation.
Sometimes I never look back.

Sometimes I hate looking into the mirror.
Sometimes I want to turn back time.

But Sometimes I wish I have never said the things I have already said.

9:16 PM

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